Friday, August 10, 2012

Unti 6

When I redid the loving kindness exercise I found that I appreciated the bringing the thoughts and meditation even further out from myself and my center of relationships.  Taking in the suffering from a wider scope and wishes health and wellness even further out can only further improve, mine and others spiritual health.  For the assessment I found that my biological aspect is one of my areas for suffering an difficulties.  My body is a wreck in a few ways.  I have epilepsy and sacrcoidosis plus more arthritis than someone in their 70's.  I always have some type of pain or discomfort and am always tired.  I keep my mouth shut and always push on becausee I know having people pity you does not good.  I also know that if I sleep too much it can turn into giving up.  So my brain still wants to fight.  When coming to the part where i have to choose what I want to work on developing and growing I have to pick interpersonal.  I know for a fact that the more upset or stressed out I am the worse my health is.  I literally pull my disks out of place when I am very stressed out. My doctor tells me calm down or you are going to kill yourself.  I have alot of turmoil and misunderstanding in my life with relationships of all kinds unfortunately.I have fought to keep some relationships that I know I should have let go along time ago, the bad relationships have effected all of the good ones I have.  Sometimes you just have to know when to move on and wish peace and good fortune to people that you can not help yourself.  In my work there is a ton of stress and I have learned how to deal with that but there are just one or two professional relationships that are more than they should be and I have been working on setting those right.  For the next step I will reevaluate some of my relationships with others. look into why I am so co-dependent and try to work on that and have a long needed conversation with a co-worker.  Hopefully this work will also go to further my biological well being.

Thanks everyone, Veronica

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